My husband has been hardening off the seedlings he nurtured under grow lights in our basement, preparing them for transplantation in soil. The first few days, he’d place them outside under the shade of our covered patio each morning, bringing them in later in the day. Slowly, he increased the duration of these outdoor sessions from a few hours to an entire day, and then he began exposing them to direct sunlight, too. The idea is that you are acclimating the tender seedlings to the occasionally harsh conditions of the natural world, hence “hardening them off.”
Awhile ago, I read an essay where a woman shared that, during her menstrual cycle, she “takes care of herself as though she is sick,” not always because of the physical symptoms but also because of the hormonal, emotional ones. She puts herself to bed early, takes long rests, moves slowly. When I first read this, I was slightly put off by the pathologization of a very natural part of the female experience, but I haven’t been able to brush off the concept. Sometimes I feel that there are no sound, natural-seeming analogies, or models, for self-care, and here is one with obvious, literal applications. Take care of yourself as though you are sick. I think of it often, and not just as it pertains to the use case she presented. My husband’s ministrations to those seedlings — the way he sheltered them when they needed to be, and let them out in the sunshine when they could stand it, honoring their tolerances — also resonates.
This past week, I was out of sorts. I sat down at my desk a few days into my funk and decided that instead of railing against or ignoring the way I was feeling, I would accommodate it, and I would do so by “taking care of myself as though I was sick,” and by placing myself in the shade.
In her book Wintering, Kate May wrote:
“Plants and animals don’t fight the winter; they don’t pretend it’s not happening and attempt to carry on living the same lives they lived in the summer. They prepare. They adapt.”-Kate May
I, too, was preparing and adapting. I wrote at the top of my planner for the week:
WELLNESS / WINTERING
Every time I’d sit at my desk, I’d see those words in my small blocky handwriting, and I’d relax a little bit. I am a disciplined person, but I consciously let myself off the hook in different ways these past few days. I took a really long walk with my dog when I should have been sitting at my desk. Mornings are my most productive time for writing, but I forfeited the opportunity in favor of quiet time alone. I sat with my kids while they colored, and I resisted the urge to tidy or tackle a to-do. I put myself to bed at 9 p.m., if not earlier, multiple nights in a row. I went for a run and wasn’t feeling it, so I stopped and walked the last mile. I took long showers. I moved slowly.
I normally find these accommodations excruciating, small admissions of failure. This week, though, I put up an umbrella marked WINTERING / WELLNESS and enjoyed the shade. I’ll be ready for the sun next week.
+This is really a permutation — a more physically-oriented one — of “giving yourself a soft landing when you need it.”
+More on the concept of wintering.
+On “withdrawing” during early motherhood.
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+P.S.A. that my new scalloped towels are currently 25% off with code CALM.
+Saw this Celine bag and immediately emailed it to my husband after telling him “I don’t need a birthday gift this year.”
+Hoping this promo will still be live this morning — but picasso tiles, 50% off! They are interchangeable with Magnatiles in case you’re worried about mixing brands. We have sets of both that work great together. My kids still LOVE these and play with them all the time.
+Sofia Richie vibes.
+This sandal is actually perfect.
+Your daughter needs these goggles.
+Luli and Me just does the sweetest pieces for littles. I adore this one!
+This embroidered dress is a front-runner for a special event I have at the end of the summer. I love yellow!
+Pretty lilac mugs.
+An unexpected, FABULOUS dress for a bride.